To The Ones I Love The Most.

Lately, Thoughts of death has been filling my mind. Life feels insuffrable. Mind feels rest less. Soul already feels like its leaving this body.
Lately I want my body cold not warm and alive but cold and dead
lately while walking home I wanna take the wrong road and just get lost
lately I wanna buy a rope and hang from it
lately I wonder what slashing my hands might feel like
lately while crossing roads I just wanna stop un the middle
lately I feel like I need to murder myself
lately life feels too heavy to walk around with
lately I wanna know the taste of 8 paracetamols together
lately I wanna go to the tallest building in Mumbai and jump of it
lately I wanna dip my head in a bucket of water and take a deep breath
lately I wonder how do I tell how I feel to people
lately I want to be saved I want to be heard
lately I dunno what to say
lately I start deciding dates to breathe for the last time
lately I regret living
lately I am losing my mind
lately my mind is killing me
lately I wanna cry in the rain
lately I smile when I am bleeding Inside
lately I wanna die
lately I dunno why
lately I wanna be lost and forgotten
lately I have started calling myself a mistake
lately I feel like a mistake
lately I dont wanna breathe anymore
lately I feel like I am already ded
lately I wanna cry till I die
lately I yearn for a hug
lately I wanna bleed
lately I wanna asleep forever
lately I am scared I dunno why
lately breathing feels like a task
lately I am sorry
lately I wanna end it all